{apennyawish}

I hate, no,… I despise social chameleons. Social chameleons are people who change who they are depending on what setting they’re in. Chameleons match their color with their environment and, although it is a miracle of nature, it isn’t a characteristic I value in people.

At all.

There’s a quote that goes something like, “if you don’t standing for something, you’ll fall for everything” and I really believe in that and have seen it happen with my own two eyes. I love when people stand for something and really fight for it until the bitter end. It shows passion, authenticity, and drive. To influence, not just be influenced. It says that you know who you are and you want to share yourself with others… knowing your weakness, faults, and limitations, but still being able to stand on them and confidently accept improvement, instead of hiding behind a completely different (and often very fake) facade.

It just felt like one of those days where you’re barely hanging on thin thread. Everything felt so overwhelming and tiring. I got a phone call from a friend who just simply asked how I was doing… and that was really what kept me hanging on. I didn’t realize how much stress I was under until this evening when the weight of the last couple of weeks just sank its claws into my shoulders.

However, I am reminded in this tough time how disgustingly human I am and how outrageously prideful I can be. Sometimes, our little narcissistic minds think they were made to take full control of everything - bending, twisting, fashioning everything and everyone to our will - when really, it is what’s being done to us by the rest of the world. I’m clinging, desperately, to You today… and here’s to a better tomorrow. I hold up a glass filled with my heavy burdens,

cheers.